A Letter to Vura
Posted on Tue Jul 8th, 2025 @ 7:21pm by Captain Edmund Merrick
Edited on on Wed Jul 9th, 2025 @ 8:13pm
1,090 words; about a 5 minute read
Mission:
Episode 16 - Silent Cries
Location: The Quarters of Edmund Merrick - Deck 3 - USS Pioneer
Timeline: MD010 O745 hrs
Edmund looked at the three letters he wrote during the scant hours he had left. He and others were heading down planetside to the Silence's world. There wasn't any guarantee that they were going to come back alive. He grimaced, there was a last letter he needed to write and it was to Vura.
He was letting go of his anger towards her, Edmund needed to do so before going down. He sat down at his desk and wrote out a letter upon his computer.
Dear Vura,
First off, I am sorry I lost my cool where you were concerned. I want to explain though why I did. I have had objections to you constantly remarking that I know nothing about women. A constant chipping away at person's self-esteem. How would you like to be told you are an inept counselor who seems to not have any empathy towards certain people. Only to a select few. Wouldn't feel that great would it.
You also, in some aspect sullied a memory I had of my older sister, Rosa. We actually did dance competitions together. Instead you called in question as to if I knew what I was doing. And what that was used as.
You inadvertently attacked a precious memory and once again attacked my knowledge of women. That sort of perception, judgemental viewpoint truly pushes people away.
And I think that is what you are doing, pushing people away, afraid of getting close to someone in friendship. I know the signs as that is something we have in common, having lost someone whom we deeply cared for and still care.
I know you feel you have all of the answers, and you don't. I feel that you need to delve more into how other species might be feeling when you act like you are superior. Try to be more empathetic with others. Try to find some affinity towards them to connect better. Just don't be a judgemental counselor as that isn't the way a counselor should act. Try to look at things in a different perspective. Not with tunnel vision and being judgemental.
That isn't the way to be a healer, that is what I term an anti-healer, one who hurts instead of heals. You might say suck it up buttercup, what you say is the right thing where I am concerned. You are wrong there.
I saw how you were to Colonel Tremble, I felt that you were disrespectful and that you felt you were in the right. And that is a hill I feel you will choose to die on. And I feel that maybe you just don't like marines in general. Or maybe just don't like male marines at all. I maybe wrong, or you will just tell me that I am wrong. I hope that you will open your eyes to see how you are affecting others. And yourself.
You are hurting badly and you are in essence bleeding all over the place. I saw the good in you when we first met, and I jumped your case when you were down on yourself. Peel the blinders from your eyes and truly see what is happening. Quit isolating yourself. Please quit being judgemental.
And for your information where Zhara is concerned. She was my counselor when I first joined the Pioneer.
I might have started going to you for counseling but your over the top sensuality made me feel rather uncomfortable. And your judgemental point of view of me. That didn't instil a sense of trust. I have always felt that instilling a sense of trust helps a person open up to a counselor. There is the worry of being guarded, of worry of a verbal slap, you know nothing about women, you know nothing about women, over and over and over.
By the way I feel you don't know much about men in general. Only perhaps Deltan men. As that is what you are able to touch without worry. Yes, that could be termed rather judgemental of me, but that is a prime example of what you have done to me.
Another thing, Vura, a friend would tell another friend how it is and maybe try to get said friend to realize what they are doing, not only injuring themselves and but also others. I am that sort of friend, not afraid to say the unpleasant things to hopefully shed some light as to your actions.
I'm sure this letter will be considered passive aggressive, and that I speak from a place of anger. I am done with being angry at you. I don't have the energy to be angry at myself either. Take a moment or two to wisely weigh your words, before speaking.
You helped to start opening my heart when you were in your more softer mode, until you attacked my knowledge of women. Yes I am stuck on that, as you know, it hurt. You got through a chink in my armor and pierced me to the quick. That though is a fact of life, you've got to take the good, with the bad, no matter how much it will hurt as the hurt does go away eventually if you let it or it doesn't sting as badly as it had before.
May you allow yourself to find happiness. And that you will try seeing other people's perceptions. Not just your own. You know if I didn't care about you as a friend, I wouldn't have bothered to even write this to you, before I head down planetside. I don't know what we will be facing, don't know if everyone will come back alive. This might be considered a goodbye. I needed to unpack this before I go down. Don't want it hanging over my head in case I do meet my end. And also it come to my mind in the worst possible moment. Be more kind to yourself and to others. Its important to use the soft touch and not the heavy hammer.
Edmund
After he was done with his letter to Vura, Edmund said "Computer, send this as soon as I leave the ship." His personal effects were already boxed up, just in case. With instructions of where they needed to be sent. He did plan on coming back, but just in case... best to be prepared.
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Captain Edmund Merrick
Company Commanding Officer Officer, The Cure
USS Pioneer
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